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Friday, May 28, 2004 tsk tsk tsk... ma computer is down.. gonna get a shelling. maybe ill nv b allowed to touch it again... spotted some "bootstrap" problem and called Dowell Computer Services... they told me the harddisc is faulty!! this is e 2nd time my uncle has to repair the com.. n im e onli one using it.. how can a Pentium 4 com b sooo lousy? sigh gonna get screwed... n its not my fault tt e com fell sick...feelin elated today(screw the com)...God has yet again saved my life with his wonderful miracles... ponned sch.. actuali todae there was no sch... there was Founder's Day Mass... so i skipped it... but i still woke up at 6 am... got dressed, went down to the void deck benches to sit n read my book. ok, come to think of it, i feel guilty now tt i haven been readin my bible... been reading emotion-evoking novels... n i was just sittin there reading... the wind felt chilly but lovely.. the air thin and fresh, unlike afternoon air... i love morning and nite breezes... went back home at 8.20 am... tried to switch on my com... but it refused to activate properly... stupid thing. hmph. chatted w my granny bout life... had breakfast (cornflakes in magnolia choc milk topped with loads of milo powder...)... slept.. got dressed and here i m at the library using the com. gonna search for more novels later... i love books. they take u away to another world, and u juz get lost in the story... for a moment u have the ability to be someone else, and u're just soaring in ur dreams... until the occasional distractions in the real world snap u back to reality. grrr. i hate being disturbed when i read. u snap me back to reality, ill snap u to nothing. gggrrrrr. seems like i haven blogged for 3 days alr... ponned sch on tues... it was netball carnival... i signed up for cheerleading but i didn go... they replaced me... guess they thot i wasn turning up either haha... wed and thurs had chi intensive from 8-11 am.. Sam and i, on both days... slept, woke up, got sooo damn hungry and sneaked out of class (a few classes were there)... went to the canteen to eat... can u imagine... a hot plate of food after being frozen to death in the AVA room ... woah... and on thurs my teachers reprimanded me for flopping mid-yr. "sarah, pls pls pls study. i want an A1. Dun say u cant, u have the ability to. What's wrong? U're such a nice girl. I noe u have family probs but pls dun sacrifice ur 'O' Levels over personal issues. I want to see ur Dad." that sorta sums up wad all my teachers told me. yea i reali feel the drive to study hard now. think bout it. if i get good results, i can move out without worries that i'll b jobless in future, i can talk my mum into sponsoring me for rental fees and sch fees, and i can coax my dad into letting me b on my own. so there. Teenzeal tmr. im reali busy now. got so many sch activites during the 1st two weeks of June... got church stuff too... im collecting my report book tmr. Dad's in Bangkok w my stepmum, and he's gonna c the teachers after he gets back on the 9th. not forgetting my PRINCIPAL. so dead. Miss my mum. Miss my granny. Miss Cheryl and Sam. Chi 'O' Levels on Monday. ive given up on Mother Tongue. im never gonna touch chinese again for the rest of my life after 31st May. WhooHooo!!! German, French and Korean, HERE I COME!!! im sick worried tt i wun b able to stae up for Operation Enchanted Woods. It's after my Os... gonna wake up at 5.30 am and stae awake til' Tues morning?? bullshit. even a cow wld collapse. and on Tues i have this Poly Experience at Singapore Poly at 1.15 pm til 6.30pm. Where to find the energy?? O god. so many things to do. so lil' time. not enuf rest. just hope ill lose weight in the process, then at least ill get sth out of it. Told u i'd b busy. this yr is a busybusy yr. gotta plan well, work hard and save money. My plans seem purrfect... but im not invincible. wad if i falter? wad if everything steers awae from the path ive laid out for myself? sheesh. Worries, i sae unto u... GET LOST. sarah is HUNGRY. wad's new? hahahaha... tsk tsk tsk... ma computer is down.. gonna get a shelling. maybe ill nv b allowed to touch it again... spotted some "bootstrap" problem and called Dowell Computer Services... they told me the harddisc is faulty!! this is e 2nd time my uncle has to repair the com.. n im e onli one using it.. how can a Pentium 4 com b sooo lousy? sigh gonna get screwed... n its not my fault tt e com fell sick... feelin elated today(screw the com)...God has yet again saved my life with his wonderful miracles... ponned sch.. actuali todae there was no sch... there was Founder's Day Mass... so i skipped it... but i still woke up at 6 am... got dressed, went down to the void deck benches to sit n read my book. ok, come to think of it, i feel guilty now tt i haven been readin my bible... been reading emotion-evoking novels... n i was just sittin there reading... the wind felt chilly but lovely.. the air thin and fresh, unlike afternoon air... i love morning and nite breezes... went back home at 8.20 am... tried to switch on my com... but it refused to activate properly... stupid thing. hmph. chatted w my granny bout life... had breakfast (cornflakes in magnolia choc milk topped with loads of milo powder...)... slept.. got dressed and here i m at the library using the com. gonna search for more novels later... i love books. they take u away to another world, and u juz get lost in the story... for a moment u have the ability to be someone else, and u're just soaring in ur dreams... until the occasional distractions in the real world snap u back to reality. grrr. i hate being disturbed when i read. u snap me back to reality, ill snap u to nothing. gggrrrrr. seems like i haven blogged for 3 days alr... ponned sch on tues... it was netball carnival... i signed up for cheerleading but i didn go... they replaced me... guess they thot i wasn turning up either haha... wed and thurs had chi intensive from 8-11 am.. Sam and i, on both days... slept, woke up, got sooo damn hungry and sneaked out of class (a few classes were there)... went to the canteen to eat... can u imagine... a hot plate of food after being frozen to death in the AVA room ... woah... and on thurs my teachers reprimanded me for flopping mid-yr. "sarah, pls pls pls study. i want an A1. Dun say u cant, u have the ability to. What's wrong? U're such a nice girl. I noe u have family probs but pls dun sacrifice ur 'O' Levels over personal issues. I want to see ur Dad." that sorta sums up wad all my teachers told me. yea i reali feel the drive to study hard now. think bout it. if i get good results, i can move out without worries that i'll b jobless in future, i can talk my mum into sponsoring me for rental fees and sch fees, and i can coax my dad into letting me b on my own. so there. Teenzeal tmr. im reali busy now. got so many sch activites during the 1st two weeks of June... got church stuff too... im collecting my report book tmr. Dad's in Bangkok w my stepmum, and he's gonna c the teachers after he gets back on the 9th. not forgetting my PRINCIPAL. so dead. Miss my mum. Miss my granny. Miss Cheryl and Sam. Chi 'O' Levels on Monday. ive given up on Mother Tongue. im never gonna touch chinese again for the rest of my life after 31st May. WhooHooo!!! German, French and Korean, HERE I COME!!! im sick worried tt i wun b able to stae up for Operation Enchanted Woods. It's after my Os... gonna wake up at 5.30 am and stae awake til' Tues morning?? bullshit. even a cow wld collapse. and on Tues i have this Poly Experience at Singapore Poly at 1.15 pm til 6.30pm. Where to find the energy?? O god. so many things to do. so lil' time. not enuf rest. just hope ill lose weight in the process, then at least ill get sth out of it. Told u i'd b busy. this yr is a busybusy yr. gotta plan well, work hard and save money. My plans seem purrfect... but im not invincible. wad if i falter? wad if everything steers awae from the path ive laid out for myself? sheesh. Worries, i sae unto u... GET LOST. sarah is HUNGRY. wad's new? hahahaha... tsk tsk tsk... ma computer is down.. gonna get a shelling. maybe ill nv b allowed to touch it again... spotted some "bootstrap" problem and called Dowell Computer Services... they told me the harddisc is faulty!! this is e 2nd time my uncle has to repair the com.. n im e onli one using it.. how can a Pentium 4 com b sooo lousy? sigh gonna get screwed... n its not my fault tt e com fell sick... feelin elated today(screw the com)...God has yet again saved my life with his wonderful miracles... ponned sch.. actuali todae there was no sch... there was Founder's Day Mass... so i skipped it... but i still woke up at 6 am... got dressed, went down to the void deck benches to sit n read my book. ok, come to think of it, i feel guilty now tt i haven been readin my bible... been reading emotion-evoking novels... n i was just sittin there reading... the wind felt chilly but lovely.. the air thin and fresh, unlike afternoon air... i love morning and nite breezes... went back home at 8.20 am... tried to switch on my com... but it refused to activate properly... stupid thing. hmph. chatted w my granny bout life... had breakfast (cornflakes in magnolia choc milk topped with loads of milo powder...)... slept.. got dressed and here i m at the library using the com. gonna search for more novels later... i love books. they take u away to another world, and u juz get lost in the story... for a moment u have the ability to be someone else, and u're just soaring in ur dreams... until the occasional distractions in the real world snap u back to reality. grrr. i hate being disturbed when i read. u snap me back to reality, ill snap u to nothing. gggrrrrr. seems like i haven blogged for 3 days alr... ponned sch on tues... it was netball carnival... i signed up for cheerleading but i didn go... they replaced me... guess they thot i wasn turning up either haha... wed and thurs had chi intensive from 8-11 am.. Sam and i, on both days... slept, woke up, got sooo damn hungry and sneaked out of class (a few classes were there)... went to the canteen to eat... can u imagine... a hot plate of food after being frozen to death in the AVA room ... woah... and on thurs my teachers reprimanded me for flopping mid-yr. "sarah, pls pls pls study. i want an A1. Dun say u cant, u have the ability to. What's wrong? U're such a nice girl. I noe u have family probs but pls dun sacrifice ur 'O' Levels over personal issues. I want to see ur Dad." that sorta sums up wad all my teachers told me. yea i reali feel the drive to study hard now. think bout it. if i get good results, i can move out without worries that i'll b jobless in future, i can talk my mum into sponsoring me for rental fees and sch fees, and i can coax my dad into letting me b on my own. so there. Teenzeal tmr. im reali busy now. got so many sch activites during the 1st two weeks of June... got church stuff too... im collecting my report book tmr. Dad's in Bangkok w my stepmum, and he's gonna c the teachers after he gets back on the 9th. not forgetting my PRINCIPAL. so dead. Miss my mum. Miss my granny. Miss Cheryl and Sam. Chi 'O' Levels on Monday. ive given up on Mother Tongue. im never gonna touch chinese again for the rest of my life after 31st May. WhooHooo!!! German, French and Korean, HERE I COME!!! im sick worried tt i wun b able to stae up for Operation Enchanted Woods. It's after my Os... gonna wake up at 5.30 am and stae awake til' Tues morning?? bullshit. even a cow wld collapse. and on Tues i have this Poly Experience at Singapore Poly at 1.15 pm til 6.30pm. Where to find the energy?? O god. so many things to do. so lil' time. not enuf rest. just hope ill lose weight in the process, then at least ill get sth out of it. Told u i'd b busy. this yr is a busybusy yr. gotta plan well, work hard and save money. My plans seem purrfect... but im not invincible. wad if i falter? wad if everything steers awae from the path ive laid out for myself? sheesh. Worries, i sae unto u... GET LOST. sarah is HUNGRY. wad's new? hahahaha... tsk tsk tsk... ma computer is down.. gonna get a shelling. maybe ill nv b allowed to touch it again... spotted some "bootstrap" problem and called Dowell Computer Services... they told me the harddisc is faulty!! this is e 2nd time my uncle has to repair the com.. n im e onli one using it.. how can a Pentium 4 com b sooo lousy? sigh gonna get screwed... n its not my fault tt e com fell sick... feelin elated today(screw the com)...God has yet again saved my life with his wonderful miracles... ponned sch.. actuali todae there was no sch... there was Founder's Day Mass... so i skipped it... but i still woke up at 6 am... got dressed, went down to the void deck benches to sit n read my book. ok, come to think of it, i feel guilty now tt i haven been readin my bible... been reading emotion-evoking novels... n i was just sittin there reading... the wind felt chilly but lovely.. the air thin and fresh, unlike afternoon air... i love morning and nite breezes... went back home at 8.20 am... tried to switch on my com... but it refused to activate properly... stupid thing. hmph. chatted w my granny bout life... had breakfast (cornflakes in magnolia choc milk topped with loads of milo powder...)... slept.. got dressed and here i m at the library using the com. gonna search for more novels later... i love books. they take u away to another world, and u juz get lost in the story... for a moment u have the ability to be someone else, and u're just soaring in ur dreams... until the occasional distractions in the real world snap u back to reality. grrr. i hate being disturbed when i read. u snap me back to reality, ill snap u to nothing. gggrrrrr. seems like i haven blogged for 3 days alr... ponned sch on tues... it was netball carnival... i signed up for cheerleading but i didn go... they replaced me... guess they thot i wasn turning up either haha... wed and thurs had chi intensive from 8-11 am.. Sam and i, on both days... slept, woke up, got sooo damn hungry and sneaked out of class (a few classes were there)... went to the canteen to eat... can u imagine... a hot plate of food after being frozen to death in the AVA room ... woah... and on thurs my teachers reprimanded me for flopping mid-yr. "sarah, pls pls pls study. i want an A1. Dun say u cant, u have the ability to. What's wrong? U're such a nice girl. I noe u have family probs but pls dun sacrifice ur 'O' Levels over personal issues. I want to see ur Dad." that sorta sums up wad all my teachers told me. yea i reali feel the drive to study hard now. think bout it. if i get good results, i can move out without worries that i'll b jobless in future, i can talk my mum into sponsoring me for rental fees and sch fees, and i can coax my dad into letting me b on my own. so there. Teenzeal tmr. im reali busy now. got so many sch activites during the 1st two weeks of June... got church stuff too... im collecting my report book tmr. Dad's in Bangkok w my stepmum, and he's gonna c the teachers after he gets back on the 9th. not forgetting my PRINCIPAL. so dead. Miss my mum. Miss my granny. Miss Cheryl and Sam. Chi 'O' Levels on Monday. ive given up on Mother Tongue. im never gonna touch chinese again for the rest of my life after 31st May. WhooHooo!!! German, French and Korean, HERE I COME!!! im sick worried tt i wun b able to stae up for Operation Enchanted Woods. It's after my Os... gonna wake up at 5.30 am and stae awake til' Tues morning?? bullshit. even a cow wld collapse. and on Tues i have this Poly Experience at Singapore Poly at 1.15 pm til 6.30pm. Where to find the energy?? O god. so many things to do. so lil' time. not enuf rest. just hope ill lose weight in the process, then at least ill get sth out of it. Told u i'd b busy. this yr is a busybusy yr. gotta plan well, work hard and save money. My plans seem purrfect... but im not invincible. wad if i falter? wad if everything steers awae from the path ive laid out for myself? sheesh. Worries, i sae unto u... GET LOST. sarah is HUNGRY. wad's new? hahahaha... tsk tsk tsk... ma computer is down.. gonna get a shelling. maybe ill nv b allowed to touch it again... spotted some "bootstrap" problem and called Dowell Computer Services... they told me the harddisc is faulty!! this is e 2nd time my uncle has to repair the com.. n im e onli one using it.. how can a Pentium 4 com b sooo lousy? sigh gonna get screwed... n its not my fault tt e com fell sick... feelin elated today(screw the com)...God has yet again saved my life with his wonderful miracles... ponned sch.. actuali todae there was no sch... there was Founder's Day Mass... so i skipped it... but i still woke up at 6 am... got dressed, went down to the void deck benches to sit n read my book. ok, come to think of it, i feel guilty now tt i haven been readin my bible... been reading emotion-evoking novels... n i was just sittin there reading... the wind felt chilly but lovely.. the air thin and fresh, unlike afternoon air... i love morning and nite breezes... went back home at 8.20 am... tried to switch on my com... but it refused to activate properly... stupid thing. hmph. chatted w my granny bout life... had breakfast (cornflakes in magnolia choc milk topped with loads of milo powder...)... slept.. got dressed and here i m at the library using the com. gonna search for more novels later... i love books. they take u away to another world, and u juz get lost in the story... for a moment u have the ability to be someone else, and u're just soaring in ur dreams... until the occasional distractions in the real world snap u back to reality. grrr. i hate being disturbed when i read. u snap me back to reality, ill snap u to nothing. gggrrrrr. seems like i haven blogged for 3 days alr... ponned sch on tues... it was netball carnival... i signed up for cheerleading but i didn go... they replaced me... guess they thot i wasn turning up either haha... wed and thurs had chi intensive from 8-11 am.. Sam and i, on both days... slept, woke up, got sooo damn hungry and sneaked out of class (a few classes were there)... went to the canteen to eat... can u imagine... a hot plate of food after being frozen to death in the AVA room ... woah... and on thurs my teachers reprimanded me for flopping mid-yr. "sarah, pls pls pls study. i want an A1. Dun say u cant, u have the ability to. What's wrong? U're such a nice girl. I noe u have family probs but pls dun sacrifice ur 'O' Levels over personal issues. I want to see ur Dad." that sorta sums up wad all my teachers told me. yea i reali feel the drive to study hard now. think bout it. if i get good results, i can move out without worries that i'll b jobless in future, i can talk my mum into sponsoring me for rental fees and sch fees, and i can coax my dad into letting me b on my own. so there. Teenzeal tmr. im reali busy now. got so many sch activites during the 1st two weeks of June... got church stuff too... im collecting my report book tmr. Dad's in Bangkok w my stepmum, and he's gonna c the teachers after he gets back on the 9th. not forgetting my PRINCIPAL. so dead. Miss my mum. Miss my granny. Miss Cheryl and Sam. Chi 'O' Levels on Monday. ive given up on Mother Tongue. im never gonna touch chinese again for the rest of my life after 31st May. WhooHooo!!! German, French and Korean, HERE I COME!!! im sick worried tt i wun b able to stae up for Operation Enchanted Woods. It's after my Os... gonna wake up at 5.30 am and stae awake til' Tues morning?? bullshit. even a cow wld collapse. and on Tues i have this Poly Experience at Singapore Poly at 1.15 pm til 6.30pm. Where to find the energy?? O god. so many things to do. so lil' time. not enuf rest. just hope ill lose weight in the process, then at least ill get sth out of it. Told u i'd b busy. this yr is a busybusy yr. gotta plan well, work hard and save money. My plans seem purrfect... but im not invincible. wad if i falter? wad if everything steers awae from the path ive laid out for myself? sheesh. Worries, i sae unto u... GET LOST. sarah is HUNGRY. wad's new? hahahaha...
Monday, May 24, 2004 manx.... changing this template took me approx. 3 hrs? haha.... but i succeeded!! yea babeh... now it looksdamn good.. rite? rite? haha.... SARAH IS STILL DEPRESSED... guess hu made me more depressed this morning? sigh... hu else but my dad again...haha.. ponned sch todae- AGAIN. they're all checkin papers in sch... guess e whole class'll get to noe my marks... not tt i did too well... the last weeekend was... kinda cool? on Saturday, my sch had a walkathon.... i'm glad i went... had fun with my team - Cheryl, Sam Tay, Angie and Steph... Sam Fam didn come... each team was given a list of qns to answer... it's sth like a treaure hunt... except tt we had to find answers along the streets of S'pore, not treasures haha.... Sam Tay n i were practically e onli ones enthu bout e quiz.. we were apart from our team most of e time... they were sauntering all e wae.. sheesh! we walked from CHIJMES all e way to Toa Payoh (the old school site) to Thomson Rd (the temporary sch site)... surprisingly, i didn feel tired until we handed in our quiz sheets somewhere in Balestier.. i guess e fun kept us goin haha... ...and we were one of e grps to win a prize! yea but they gave us a Dettol Body Soap sample, a bottle of Clearasil Toner, a CD-R and a CD case... nothing interesting... and luckilySam Fam didn come, cuz there were just enuf prize items for 5 ppl... then Cheryl, Sam and i went for lunch at Taka... i had some Jap noodles... they wre nice in e beginning, then i filled up very fast and got SICK of it... dun try it, peeps. Reached home 'bout 3 pm... i had wanted to slp, but i got so carried away with talkin t my stepmum and reading my book that i missed out on my rest... went to chomp chomp for dinner... e food's nice... e "ah-bal-ling" there is e best i've tasted of all e hawker centres... oh, but u come out of the place smelling like a wide variety of food... so pls wear sth tt u wouldn mind dirtying manx... Sunday was the last Teenzeal to b held on Sunday... had fun in church.. and i could go for 3rd.. was challenging tall Timothy aka Timmeetea to Daytona... he let me win the two games we played... feel so useless haha... *thanks anyway Timmeetea* met Jemz's mum.. and Jemz himself.. he's so funny!! very nice to tease him haha!! bumped into Eng Kee as well... y are all e guyz so tall? i feel like a migid... but tall is nice haha... been sleepin at 2 am and gettin up at 6 am for the past few days.. hope i dun fall sick... ppl, go read: Gossip Girl by Cecily von Diegesar... it's more fore felines, but it's a great book! trust me... get it at ur nearest library... guyz, it's not tt gay so u mite wanna try it haha... gtg collect e photos i sent for developing ystday... it's so hot. is it the weather?... or is it just ME?? haha! cheerio. P.S. TAG ME!!
Friday, May 21, 2004 finally, my blog looks much better now dun ya'll agree? im like reali rushin now so i juz chose this simple layout which turned out alrite... still screwed up a lil but its still under construction yea? ill update it asap... o n my tagboard still aint workin but ill fix it real soon.... sigh gtg peepz...still suffering from serious depression.... cheerio.
Wednesday, May 19, 2004 can my depression get any deeper? sigh.failed math. failed chinese. failed mid-yr. havent even opened my chinese textbook since january. 12 more days to 'O' levels chinese paper... which means 12 more days to my doom. mum n dad'll b so pissed... therefore, i'm gonna get more grounded in e weeks to come. blog is screwed up. so many probs to solve. so little time. contemplating if i shld work in june. gotta study. but i need cash. and yes, yes i noe i can go for operation enchanted woods. it was a miracle that that f**ked up father of mine said "ok" when i asked him. yes, yes i noe ive got great frens there for me. yes, yes, i noe im better off then e victims of war and famine. BUT I AM NOT SATISFIED. this world is crazy. and i swear singaporeans dunno e true meaning of "misery" and " trouble" and " disaster". the fire alarm went off during recess todae. was halfway thru enjoying my malt candy... and we had to "rush" to e car park, where we assemble every morning .... under e scorching sun. i was melting. and so was my candy. and to think tt we didn rush there manx, we juz strolled while e "kiasu" ones pushed us... "fire alarm! fire alarm!" my frens n i were like.... "big deal?" haha. and i was still enjoying my malt candy when we assembled at e car park. i was twisting e candy around e chopsticks... until i saw my discipline mistress staring threateningly at me. thank god i'd finished it already. then e whole grp of us strated laughing out loud. i said, "can u imagine? there the fire alarm juz went off, and here we are still strolling, eating, not giving a damn bout e situation!" we laughed some more. and then we saw 2 gals w their plates in hand. MUAHAHAHA!!!!! wad doofs they are. discipline mistress said into e mike " your food is more important than ur life!" true.true. thats why i said, singaporeans wil b DEAD in less than 10 hrs... if ever (grace,grace, mercy,mercy) there is a war/famine... cuz we cant take no pain, no suffering, no hunger, no thirst, no sacrifice... we are too PAMPERED. but then again, i wouldn mind being oblivious to e troubles of this world. i wouldn mind being rich n famous, beautiful n jaded. and very comfortable. at least i wouldn have to worry. tsktsk. depression, depression. YOU ARE DRAINING ME. killing me softly.... i'm bleeding on the inside. but no one sees the blood. but i feel it. it's gushing. and my life... is incomplete.
Monday, May 17, 2004 heyz this msg is for my DIDI... Immanuel.... pls help me check wads wrong k? scroll down e left panel...u wil notice repititions of the details... thnx dear ...sigh. juz cant get this blog rite. maybe i shld change address? but its such a hassle. maybe i ought to change my template? sigh. chinese o levels in 15 days. prepare to die. bleagh.
Friday, May 14, 2004 if any of u can c a new template, or was it unsuccessful? anywae im tryin to change e template...of course, its disastrous... wad a loser i m!! pardon me everyone, if my blog is distorted or sth? sth's reali wrong... i promise ill get it fixed by nx week ok? its my first time tryin to do this thing on my own... im a HTML virgin, btw... so... sigh. im pissed manx. ill getb it fixed soon... ciao.----------UNDER CONSTRUCTIN SIAZ------------------
Thursday, May 13, 2004 OH MY GOD. guess hu i saw todae? haha. no one great actuali..juz ...some jerk. hu made me cry. but...hu's reali cute!! haha...and tall...and charming...and smart...n tall...and charming... haha cant believe i'd still say nice things bout a jerk. sheesh.Had my last paper today- Accounts! my fave subject haha!! but i didn have enuf time... laft out one whole qn... 25 marks! nvm.... i was aiming for an A1.. looks like now...i'll prob get B3.... its funny how im not goin out todae... its e last dae of exams manx...forgot to call my cousin last nite to plan for this afternoon. o wells. anyway, im meetin Mummy tmr!! whoohoo! aft all, my plans didn get ruined! Hallelujah!!(oopz...was that spelt correctly?) meetin my mum @ LIDO tmr... 12 noon...any of u guyz gonna b ard there? gimme a buzz k? movie, lunch, dinner... ermZ, dun tink ill get to do any SHOPPING tmr.. sigh... plus my results for mid yr are damn lousy... looks like ill have to wait til after prelims then maybe she'll pamper me again... cried juz now. No! not over that guy!! it's 'cuz i practised so damn hard for my maths but i still failed. i got e lowest in class. 38%. feelin LOSERish. there goes my June hols. dads gonna ground me "deeper", and i'm gonna have to go to work. dad said tt if i dun do well, he's not gonna give me cash this Hol so i'm gonna have to WORK. F*** tt jerk. Hate him to e CORE. currently in a state of depression. cant eat. dun wanna talk much/at all. no interest in life. dun feel like goin out. i'm soooo not myself. My whole world is tumbling down. Personal money probs(stuff to pay off;no money for necessary shopping), studies failing, grounded for life, a horrible father... manx, i need some "miracle dust" for some revelation manz.... .:Lord, where are you? I need u real bad:. i'm juz thinkin... its only in times when i'm realli needy tt i start to appreciate my blessings more...and its onli in times when i'm reali helpless tt i cry out to my Father in Heaven. Just what is this world coming to??? Heyz, Monday's my sch marking day, so dudes/babes... if u'd like a date w me, pls contact me SOON... haha!! seriously.... i need to get out. and enjoy myself, that is. --->i'mfallingtoodeep.sopls.someone.saveme<---
Tuesday, May 11, 2004 hmmmz... i'd like to say- e weather's killin me!! mr sun's been super hyper these few days. grrrr. *rainraincomeagainandsavetheday*had a horrible friday. and saturday. but Sunday was... better? went to church in e morn and then met my aunts, uncles and cousins for lunch. Abigail, Alicia, Eve: I LOVE U GUYZ!! had Macs for breakfast on Sunday... Constance flew to buy back for some of us.... sausage mcmuffin n hashbrown-yum-... and guess wad? my silly cousins dragged me to Macs for lunch-again. Fish mcdippers,fries and a hot fudge Sundae. r u guyz tryin to make me FAT?? i was totallay missin my granny durin e weekend... maybe cuz my dad turned hysterically angry and mean. yeayea. another big fight. i'd sae,wad's new? -jerk- had Physics paper todae. was so angry w my dad for insultin me ystdae "you're gonna flung ur 'O' levels. i wun b surprised." .... ok, fine. and so i chose not to study last nite. didn even touch my book. i noe its stupid of me, but knowing my temper.... i'm hopelessly impulsive. i alwaez tell ppl not to say things about me when i didn do it or when i'm not goin to do it. but most of e time THEY end up pissin e hell outta me, n i end up doin sth to spite em. told YA to lay off. u chose not to. so dun blame ME for treatin u like DUNG. o wells... i'm tryin to figure out how to change my template... HTML virgin, u c... haha.... Geog paper tmr... on e count of three, everybody sae it together....1,2,3! "i'm gonna fail!" haha!! wad to do? not enuf preparation... no point broodin over it. meetin my mum this Fri!!! hopefully no one stirs up trouble last minute.... haven seeen Mummy for almost a mth!! miss her so much!! Mummy: Happy Belated Mothers' Day!! k...kinda late, but i didn get ta c her e last weekend so we're havin our Mothers' Day dinner this Fri instead... i have no papers on Fri which means i dun hafta go ta sch!! whoooohooo!!! gonna meet up w ma frens... hopefully... Sarah_myotherhalf: Sarah... thnx for being there for me esp durin this tough time now w my dad.... i feel tt my problems are takin a toll on this frenship... cuz nowadays i dun feel like talkin much or sharin my probs... cuz its e same thing over and over again... and my Faith is backslidin... so pray for me, and thnx for bein a pillar of support tt i noe i can fall back on anytime... my dad's reali makin me lose interest in life... only DADDY can revive me... we're both reali busy w our own lives-studies,ministries,frens,family... hope tt after O levels things'll b more relaxed yea.... we gotta catch up whenever we can... wadever it is, i'll b holdin on to this frenship and no matter how far back it gets pushed behind sometimes, i'll still hold on to this frenship we've established... dun let go no matter wad too, k? ilu. [1/2 + 1/2 = 1] Godwithus_Slothdidi: heyz didi... u noe i juz read ur blog n it was oh-so-enri9ching... thnx for sharin so much good news... as i'd mentioneed my Faith is "disintergrating"... and i guess ur entries did revive it a lil'... e rest depends on my perserverance to hang on til' i see victory... so u tc k? n we'll catch up.. as in REALLAY CATCH UP after my 'O's and ur 'N'.... i promise, bro. *HuGz* Cliff: pro-yo, brudder... life goin great for u? haha i sure hope so... well u're one of those ppl hu reali keeps me goin... simply by just listening, and givin me words of encouragement... i'm reali glad i came to New Creation and met so many lovelay ppl... like u!! haha... didja ever noe u're like one of e first ppl i noticed? haha cuz u were like talkin so loud to Becky, and u were in charge of soccer for the Teenzeal day camp at East Coast beach.. tink it was 2001? 2002? haha dunno if u can remember.... kk u tc n stae cool! pro-yo manx haha!! CREW: well well.... e most blessed ppl in Teenzeal!! *amenamen* haha!! we r reali growin in quantity and quality manx.... under e guidance of Zhen, Cheryl and T. Zu Ming... it alwaez brightens up my Sundae to noe tt i'm gonna have fun crappin', laughin' and servin' with CREW!!! Love u all!! Babes+Hunks of CREW... stae sassay and sexaye!! XOXO +ifuwalkedawayfrommetoday.i'dstillsingcelebrationsofu.cuz*ilu+
Friday, May 07, 2004 just got back fr Biology paper in sch.... it was ok lahz... considering tt i didn even open my textbook... i only read two pages of notes on "adrenalin" and "digestion" haha!! can pass can pass... juz tt my MCQ will pull me down... but God'll help me pass yea? haha....there are only two words to describe how im feelin now: sad and lost waitin for my dad to pick me up. i dread going to his house. i dread weekends. i used to anticipate it. that was when i still had my feedom to go out with my frens. but now im restricted like a prisoner. so i dread e weekends. i was crossing e road juz now. i jay-walked. i was thinkin, if a car were to knock me dead and send me to heaven(or hell) rite now,i wouldn mind. cuz i cant meet my frens at all. all i face everyday are my family and walls and books and books. there's reali no meaning in my life. i'm sori God, but there's reali no more reason to live when u cant enjoy life to e fullest, and when u dun have e freedom to do wad u wanna do. it's like my dad's living my life for me. i hate the men in my life. i hate them. i swear... very soon... one of these few years when i make it on my own.... i'm gonna walk OUT THE DOOR. FUCK RULES. they're meant to b broken.
Thursday, May 06, 2004 itz been 6 daez since i blogged... mugmugmug... dreary exams..... juz got back..had social studies and Science(phys/bio) MCQ paper todae... sucked. i didn study for any... my science has deproved so much... lack of practise. bleagh.told my dad im gonna fail mid-yr... hope he wun b angry at my overall results... ive got Bio tmr... i have only bout 8 more hrs before bedtime to stuff 15 chapters into my puny brain. my teachers have high hopes in me, n im lettin 'em down. sigh... guess wad? my dad forbids me to buy anymore snacks cuz he says im gettin fat n my pimples are infesting my face. okiez so now even my dad says im fat... *sObS* heyz ive been doin crunches e past week daily k! heehee talked to my ex last nite... its like we've known each other for almost 3 yrs... since i was 14... we saw each other mature so much during these 3 yrs... its nice to b able to b on good terms with ur ex... esp when e breakup was mutual haha... all i can sae is he's a very nice guy... haha but im not in Love manx... got no time this yr haha!! *OlevelsOlevels* i've gotta postpone my Mothers' day outing w my mum to e nx Friday.. supposed to b this week... stupid exams... i'm Soooo Stressed!!! *pullshair* i miss my MUMMY.... -Big Long SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.................-
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